It Happened Again

December 19, 2008 · Posted in Drunken Rants

Today was one of those days you would like to not have. I felt rather dark waking up, and it just got worst from there.

Ok, that’s not fair. I felt good, not great, but good. And so I went to work, doing an afternoon shift on a snowy day. I made good money and was drinking my water and Cokes (i.e. Rum and Cokes to the public) and laughing when a dancer walked by me. I don’t know here name since she was new and usually there is a 90 to 10 chance that she wouldn’t be back tomorrow. But she smelled.

She smelled of Joe. The girl who broke my heart. I felt horrible.

My mind remembered the first moment I smelt that smell. We were both taking a pee when she exited the stall next to mind just at the right moment for me to walk out of mine. We whapped heads and I smelled that smell. It was like Jasmine and sweat. It smelt… beautiful.

And today I smelt it again. And the memories came back. And I felt empty inside.

The Boy didn’t cure me of my woes. I think I knew that before. The only mind that can help me is… my own. And right now, its smelling jasmine and sweat. And missing what could have been.